I Imagine how I'd feel if this very day the powers that be announced a complete troop withdrawal from Iraq. I'd be happy. I'd say 'it's about time.' And I would wonder if the pain and expense had been worthwhile. I'd pray for the best.
I'm going home today and that is about how I feel. I'm not leaving with the 500 neutrophil count that had been the objective. Preliminary biopsy of bone asparate indicates that I have about as much leukemia as I entered with 36 days ago. So what of all this pain endured by me and my near ones, and how do we justify the expense? I'm praying for the best.
As you know, I was sent home from Stanford after two months with much the same results from a bone marrow biopsy. Since my kidneys and heart were so damaged, I could get no more treatment. And I went on to a record remission. My body's history indicates that it simply takes more time to "normalize." I believe my higher power and the prayers of people who love me bring about that normalization.
I cried a lot yesterday and today of feel a spiritual renewal. Katherine, the hospital chaplain here points how how tears are a form of baptismal renewal.
I have a lot of packing to do to get out of here today. I've already told my nurse that I'd like room 12 (bigger) if and when I come back for more chemo.
Zac, Luc, Jen, and Scott are scheduled to come to Boston tomorrow. Those boys are my PROVEN healers.
Stay tuned, in good cheer. Love Bonnie
Bonnie and Daniel: Thank you for sharing this time with us. We read this and wish we could be right with you, and we are -- in our spirit and prayers. You are the most unbelievably courageous and generous human beings we know. Our hearts are glowing as we cherish each word and moment with you. May you be able to listen powerfully during each choice, and honor the depth of your souls. We love you. Judy and Tim.
Posted by: Judy and Tim Maloney | May 10, 2006 at 09:33 AM